A portrait of George Floyd by Nikkolas Smith Credit: Nikkolas Smith

“But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with such people.” – ‭‭2 Timothy‬ ‭3:1-5‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I wish there was a way I could un-watch (if there is a word like that) that video. It is one of the most heartbreaking things I have ever watched. The worst so far this year.

As a doctor, I have watched people die. They passed as we were trying our best to keep them alive but this really was too much to watch.

To watch someone who had taken an oath to serve and protect take a helpless life without any trace of remorse is inexplicable.

Cold and wicked. If there is anything colder than ice, it is your wicked heart! You held the man down after you had handcuffed him, and he was crying that he could not breathe for several minutes and you did not budge.

Your fellow rascals just stood there and did nothing to stop you! The people who were watching you do this called out to you but your ears were stuffed with the wax of wickedness flowing from your frozen heart!

He was on the ground already, the lowest he could ever be, and you made sure he would never get up again!

How could you not hear the cry of a dying man?

How do you get to that point that you discard training and natural human kindness to snuff out the life of someone you were supposed to protect, no matter what he had done?

The man cried out for his mother as he was dying but your brain was too addled by animosity and prejudice to even comprehend!

Oh my God! What a mess!!!

If you are reading this, what is the state of your heart? That police officer (who is not worthy of a mention) probably did not begin like that. His heart did not start that cold. At a point in his life, his journey to a frozen heart started…

Are you on that same journey? The journey to a frozen heart?

You may not be in law enforcement. Maybe you are like that one who refused to leash her dog but rather called the police, feigning ‘damsel in distress’ to achieve what exactly? You may be the man who found an 18-year old girl alone in a shop and raped her! Or, the ones who found a young girl reading alone in a Church (of all places) and raped and killed her!

Whose ‘neck’ are you ‘kneeling’ on? Whose cry for help are you deliberately ignoring? Who are you wickedly taking advantage of? Who have you wickedly abused and put an almost indelible mark of terror, anguish, and sorrow upon their lives?

Check your heart! What are your kindness levels? What are your ears stuffed with? How far down that road have you gone? Are you still part of decent humanity?

Your heart does not suddenly become that cold. No, it starts little by little until you cross that threshold where you can no longer control yourself or your actions.

I hope and pray earnestly that justice is done in all these cases! I earnestly pray that George Floyd’s death and everything going on right now will not be in vain! I earnestly hope that we can put all these things behind us (with justice done) for all time… (Hmmmmm…)

On my knees…