Me, The Storm, and You

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Closer and closer…
Persistently so;
Through the night thick with darkness;
As the heavens weep a mournful deluge;

Fears…
A subtle panic begins to set in;
Visions of possible outcomes flashing through;
Emotions completely roiled;
Coherent thought blindsided by the swelter of apprehension;
Long and deeply nurtured terrors swell to the surface;

Intensely ingrained responses…
Flight;
Through the blinding rainfall;
Then, anger;
Torrents of it;
Upsets worn like a coat of mail;
Lashing out;
Barbs a-plenty;
Offense rooted in weapons of life-draining substance;

On and on…
The story goes;
As though following some pre-ordained script;
Watching;
Wondering;
Waiting;
Face turned into the wind;
One eye raised to the tumult above;
Completely drenched;
But still there;

Knowing…
More like hoping;
One day, this storm will end;
I draw up the collar of my coat;
One more look beyond the turbulent canopy;
I turn and through the now persistent puddles;
Gently walk away…

Rock Bottom

My skies are dark; thick clouds obscure even the faintest hint of light
My world is cold; my heart colder still;
With one stroke, every iota of warmth sucked from within and without;

Yes the wind, such ferocity my life has scarcely experienced
Everything bows in its wake, my head and my pride inclusive;
Rain, torrents of misery cast upon my beleaguered soul…

Long I had thought this storm would pass
Long had I longed for but a sliver of golden ray

My feet have long become dead weights, unsure, so unsteady
When I begin to feel the purchase of solid ground, the next step, an icy cold murk bath
The vestiges of warmth receding with every drop
Cold like the tendrils of a wild vine creeping into my marrow;

Even if I were a vessel of the seas, such a tempest would my bows have overwhelmed;

How much lower can a man feel?
Even when I stumble upon some rare shelter amongst this bleakness
The elements do conspire and short-lived is my succour;

In my despair I abhor even myself, despising what I have let become
Oh God!… Oh God!…