“Killing Me Softly with (t)his …”


I am sure just reading the title sets the hit song “Killing me softly” playing in your head. If you are old enough, you are probably hearing Roberta Flack’s beautiful voice as she croons the song, or maybe it’s Lauryn Hill and the Fugees for those of us who first heard this song in the 90s.

Well, this title tells more than just the song ringing in your head… On my way to the airport in New Orleans in 2008, I noticed construction crews raising thick slabs of concrete all along the highway to the airport, and wondered why. I asked the driver of the taxi conveying me and his response was that there were some old folk who lived on the other side of the highway, whom they noticed were dying unexpectedly. Investigations by the authorities revealed that the cause of death could be attributed to the noise that was coming from the highway, hence the erection of the concrete slabs to keep the noise out of the residential areas. More than 5 years after, the concrete slabs are still going up all around the highways.

“Strumming my pain with his fingers…”

The sky is dark as only an African night sky can be. The air is rather warm and almost still. The kind of evening one would expect to hear in the stillness, the beautiful African chorale of the night, alas, more ominous sounds fill the night. Indeed, so many expectations would have fit a night like this, but disappointments reign. The lone street lamp is out, throwing the whole street into almost complete darkness. A few outside lamps cast some glow upon the street; a pathetic struggle at illumination that is almost pitiful when one thinks about it a little deeply. Then the noise. You would think that you were at a concert hosted by the national association of earth moving machines. Or more accurately, the national cacophonic orchestra of generators. Each instrument contributing its unique and distinct sound to the melee. Not be left out and also not to be outdone is the Canine Foundation. Their persistent barking and howling basically tops the icing upon this rather evil and sinister cake.

“Singing my life with his words…”

Someone would say, “Well, that’s the story of our lives”. Indeed, so it has come to be. Countless nights without electricity supply have turned our neighborhoods into a veritable war zone of different noises. The kind of war zone that would render any peace-keeping force useless and leave them feeling emasculated. We have designed public health programs targeted at all sorts of bugs and diseases. We have even singled out the sufferers and carriers and given them all sorts of titles with funny sounding acronyms, yet even closer than most of us can imagine, another silent killer lies patiently in-waiting.

“Killing me softly…”

A few houses down my street, another monster roars to life, setting all the windows in my bedroom to a constant audible vibration. Then its sound becomes muffled as the so-called sound-proof shutters are closed, yet, the vibrations remain. On a number of occasions, I have wondered at this, and the thought crosses my mind even more frequently these days with the increasing power outages. I ask myself, “How did we ever get to be in this mess?”

“Killing me softly with (t)his…” 


Where is your generator located? Good question. I recall  a visit to a friend several years ago. He lived in a tenement apartment (popularly called face-me-I-face you) in a place called Agbowo, in Ibadan. On that fateful evening, NEPA/PHCN had done the usual. There were 6 apartments. Each one had a small generating set right in the corridor (as there was no place else to put them). All 6 generators were on. You probably have a smile or some grin on your face as you recall having seen this kind of situation, or currently live in this type of situation. In a lot of ways, the situation described above could be likened to a double-barreled shotgun, where the noxious fumes and the attendant noise from the sets constitute the bullets.

Seriously, where is your generator located? That question bears repetition and some serious thinking. I can imagine that not too many of us have the luxury of large compounds or even that of soundproofed generators. I see some interesting things from time to time. People who live in apartment buildings (especially on the upper floors) with big petrol generators placed in the balcony. The so-called shopping mall where each shop has a generator right in front of it and customers and shop owners have to practically shout to hear or be heard over the din. I find that no matter how small the space, we always find a spot for a generator. What else are we to do? Just dealing with the situation in which we find ourselves.

“Killing me softly with this Noise…”

You can hear it before you even see it. The thump from the sub-woofers alone alerts you to the presence of Mr. Dude (or Miss Babes) in the shiny new BMW (or whatever vehicle catches your fancy).

Constant exposure to noise over a certain decibel level has detrimental effects on health. This is a recognized fact all over the world. Through mechanisms firmly established and through those with a rather tenuous link, the effects have been demonstrated. From annoyance, stress, loss of concentration, impaired sleep cycles, to cardiovascular diseases like hypertension, heart attacks, and then of course, hearing loss, and eventual death, the effects of noise pollution have been documented in the literature. It is not just the generators, the fact that you love blaring your car horn at the slightest infraction may be doing you more harm than getting that pesky driver off the road and out of your way. Effects have been demonstrated in adults and in children. Children are particularly vulnerable to the effects of noise pollution of any sort.

Countries, governments, and institutions who have recognized this have taken drastic actions to deal with this menace. I am told of international airports where no airplanes land between a certain periods of the night so that the people can have some decent sleep. I have written about the concrete slabs that are still going up as you read this article. Societies where you risk being arrested as a public nuisance if you keep your hands on your car horn as we Nigerians are wont to do.

What are we doing? How long are we going to remain in this mess? Nobody is spared, neither the rich nor the poor. Like one article I read said, the vibrations are equally as bad as the sound levels, even the vibrations we think we do not sense. So, your soundproofing is not as all that as you may think it is.

When can we have constantly peaceful nights, devoid of the intrusion of generators? When will we as a people recognize that indeed we have a problem that requires more  urgent attention than the lip service being paid to this power issue by our government?

You move into a house. You either move in with a generator, or you rush out and go an buy one, not knowing that gradually, slowly and softly…

The dogs are barking again. My little boy stirs in his sleep. His cry cutting into my contemplation. I pick up my guitar and look helplessly to the skies one more time, shrug my shoulders, and sigh very deeply…


1. http://www.greenworld365.com/people-suffer-effects-of-noise-pollution/

2. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Health_effects_from_noise

3. http://www.trafficnoise.org/

In Memoriam: A Tribute to My Colleagues

Benzogi Lamidi Benson Anthony

Friday June 1st 2012 12 pmish

Me: Obi have you seen the invitation card I dropped on your table?

Obi: Doc, you are funny o! Which one be Mr. and Mrs. Obi Akubueze

Me: You know now! Na wetin you suppose don do

Obi: Doc, leave story. We’ll talk when you come back…

Same day or the day or the day before…

Bottle of groundnuts being shared in the office

Me: Lamidi, no more groundnuts for you

Lamidi: Ah Doctor, you too have joined them…

Needless to say that the Dana Airline crash of 3rd June 2012 was a disaster of humongous proportions. A rather strange disaster at that in my opinion, especially considering the nature and caliber of people who perished that fateful day. So much pain inflicted suddenly on an already groaning populace. Brings to mind the picture of an interrogator or inquisitor trying to see how much more pain his already battered and bruised captive would be able to bear. Everywhere one turned then, there was somebody directly or indirectly affected by the crash. Darkness bleaker than the dreariest of nights cast upon a people desperately trying to claw their way out of the incessant nightmares thrust upon them by successive hapless governments. Pain! The passing of the days may have dulled it but the ache will remain a long time with us. What we lost on that day is beyond all comprehension. Tears one apart from the insides out.

4 of you. Obinna Akubueze, Benson Oluwayomi, Lamidi Taiwo, and Anthony Okara. Still so hard to take.

Obi (Benzogi)

I miss you bro. You were my go-to guy. Man of many parts. There was always something new. Concept, project, proposal, idea, business… Never an idle moment. You had this thing about there being so much to be done at every point, and you were never one to shy away from all that work. Sometimes I step into your office and can almost hear your ever present humming. Not exactly sure you could sing, but if there was ever a humming competition, I would have penciled you down right away for the finals. It was never difficult to make you laugh. The sound of it rings in my ears even as I write these words. Everyone who knew you knew that there was something great out there for you. It was only a matter of time. Time that will never be. So much left unfinished.  So much indeed.


The most inspiring thing about you was your faith and quiet confidence in God. One did not need to come to close to realize that that was the anchor of your soul. You knew God and that showed in everything that you did. Always encouraging. There are many who would attribute certain achievements in their lives to the constant nudging the got from associating with you. Your focus was amazing. When I think about it, it was as though you knew that you did not have the liberty of time on this side of eternity. There was greatness in you and you made sure it rubbed off on the people close to you. The seeds you have sown will long outlive you Benson. The good that you have done will always stand as a constant memorial to you. Your generations will always be blessed and will not know lack because your hands and mind were constantly open. You are dearly missed.


If all the groundnuts in this world would bring you back, I am sure those of us who shared that final moment together would gladly give it to have you back. Quiet and quite gentle. Soft spoken and slightly mischievous. It was always good to be with you. Always good to see the smile upon your face. Always jovial about everything. If you did not know, you were never too proud to ask. Your commitment and dedication to the tasks given was well known. You were a really good person to know and I am glad that I had that opportunity.


Gentle Tony. Simple words but sum up in general the kind of person you were. Hardly a complaint would one get from you. Even when the pressure of work was much (as it generally always was), you did not complain. Even though you were gentle and generally reserved, you knew a lot of stuff as I came to find out.

It really has not been the same without you guys. Not 1, not 2, not even 3, but 4 of you at the same time. That was rather too much, and inexplicably so.

In the last one year, I have asked myself from time to time if it was all for nothing. I find that the general Nigerian landscape has become that people just generally try to forget and try to move on (as difficult as that really is in reality). I guess that this is probably some defense mechanism we have inculcated as a people in order to help us keep our sanity in the face of rampant wastage and profligacy; in the face of truly having plenty, yet having scant little to show for it. Truly, it would be most terrible if indeed nothing has changed and the factors that brought us so much pain are still overlooked and covered up in corruption.

I am sure I speak for the whole Walter Reed Program Nigeria and the Nigerian Ministry of Defence HIV program in saying that we miss you dearly. We will always remember you, emulate the examples you left for us, and ensure to the best of our abilities, that your hard work and sacrifice will not be in vain.

May your gentle souls rest in peace. Adieu once again!